I Am No Longer Who I Was

“We are born in relationship, we are wounded in relationship, and we can be healed in relationship.” Dr. Harville Hendrix

As I read through letters, emails and blog posts of people reflecting on the events of 2013 and setting goals forward into 2014, my thoughts of 2013 sit right in the middle of the worst and best year of my life. 2013 was a significant year relationally, emotionally, financially, physically and spiritually.  On December 31, 2013 I was no longer who I was on January 1, 2013.  Much has happened during this year and I, along with our family, have had the privilege of experiencing so much and changing in so many ways this year…some good and some not so good.

God has blessed us and provided financially for us throughout 2013.

Relationally, there have been some significant swings from the highs of incredible joy to the lows of deep suffocating pain. Hurt seems to overshadow joy because it has been like nothing we have ever experienced. The pain has resonated through our home, at our church, with family, with friends and within the community in which we live. Some pain has been self-inflicted and other comes from no fault of our own.  Please continue to pray for healing of relationships as Satan continues to attack at every turn.


Physically, I turned 54 last year and I am feeling it in many different ways.  Sometimes at the dinner table, the kids will rattle off line after line from the the most recent and even older movies. One of  my jokes, however, is… “It’s great getting old because I can’t remember any of the lines and when I get to see a movie again, it is like seeing it for the first time again.”

Spiritually, as a family we have been challenged; as a ministry we have been challenged; and as a local church body we have been challenged. However, 2013 has been a season of growth.  The overarching theme has been "drawing nearer to the Lord as we learn to trust who He is and who He says I am even on my worst day."  Each and every day there seems to be greater and greater opportunities to live by Grace and to test God’s truth and love in our lives.